Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Will it work...

Conference was wonderful.  For the first time since we moved here I have been able to watch it on TV.  Well, on the Netflix box through the Mormon Channel.  It had its moments where it would suddenly skip to an earlier part in the conference and just when I was thinking it was a message for me, it would skip back.

The thing I learned though, was that I pay more attention when it is bigger than a computer screen and I enjoyed seeing the speakers eyes clearly.  I absolutely loved President Monson's talk.  His whole demeanor was what I needed.  He was quick to smile and tell jokes, roll his eyes and for me it was great to see his humanity.  I needed to hear him talk in a way that I can relate to.

The main thing I can remember, and for me that is a biggie because my retention is that of a GNAT, is a quote from the Prophet.

"The Ten Commandments are NOT a Suggestion!"
I've never been one to break the ten commandments, but I can certainly skirt over the stuff that leads up to breaking a big one.  My temper has been very short lately and my language... well, not so christlike.

I don't want my children to remember that about me.  I remember my mother always blowing up at just about everything.  I find myself doing it and hating myself afterwards.  How can I expect my children to control their temper if I don't control mine?

It is my greatest challenge to work on.  I want a harmonious home filled with the spirit.  I feel that we have the basics and we love each other, but we lack patience for each other when it really counts.

I want my family to be eternal.  I know that can only happen if we endure to the end.  And that takes action and constant change with a desire to become more like our Savior. I am grateful for forgiveness and the chance to start again trying to get it right.

Tomorrow is a new day, hopefully with a new and better attitude.


Ben and Laurie said...

That's what I appreciate in having a friend like you--you are honest with yourself and what you need to work on instead of just brushing over it. You're awesome!

Shannon said...

I loved conference, too - I am always reminded of things I need to improve, but also reminded that I am not alone in my striving and that Heavenly Father loves me and wants me to help me. :)

Will and Marcie Davis said...

Oh I needed this post! Thanks for sharing your insights! I love you!